I'm bored -.-
I've cleaned my room. And when i say cleaned i mean i actually cleaned it. Even though i'm super bored, i still don't want march break to end, or this wonderful weather either(that i haven't gotten a chance to enjoy yet.... maybe tomorrow?). I've also painted, nothing special or anything, one was a replica of another one of my paintings (my mom wants me to send it to my godmother (in Portugal) and another was me just fooling around with the paint.
So, i told you guys i'd let you know the Google analytics results if they weren't too embarrassing. Well, here are the results;
I get an average of about 6 visits a day. 24 a week, 38 (so far during this month.)
Not bad, not bad at all.
I haven't ranted in a while but i'm starting to get really annoyed because people put so many expectations on me that are impossible to live up to. I'm one of those people who are 'good at everything' you know, i have good grades, i can play a few sports, i'm social, i'm good at art, and that kinda stuff. People think that my life is so easy. I get easy grades and a lot of stuff come to me without much work. People like me know that life isn't always rainbows and sunshine, we go through a whole lotta crap just to be decent. See, with being good at things come high expectations, with high expectations comes many let downs. Before, an 80 was a success and a 90 a miracle, now a 90 is average and an 80 is a failure. Before, a goal in soccer was a 'good job' but now it's only one. Before a decent painting was great, but now i need to do better. Before almost all decisions were 'smart decisions' now 'smart decisions' don't exist. I hate that I can't be proud of the things I do. I hate that if i don't meet other peoples expectations i can't be proud of myself.
Gah this is a deep entry, I'll leave it at that.
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